Monday, September 1, 2008

I've gotta say something...

OK - I have to post something so that I will quit seeing my Piper Posts with that "3 weeks ago" sign under it on all my friends blogs!!! As my friend Cowgirl at Heart said, it is time to get back in the groove, but I was talking to my friend Linda at school today, and made the analogy of having to "gear down" when school is out for summer (switching from high gear always going, going, going to a much more relaxed gear) and then how I just haven't "geared back up" yet. I feel pulled in 10 different directions and can't seem to settle on any one at a time yet. The twins started the Headstart Program last week when I started back to "big" school, and while Aidan is living large and loving school, Cord just hasn't decided it's the "best thing since sliced bread" yet. He is having some separation anxiety when his Daddy drops him off at school, although he always says he's ready to go back the next morning. He's also started throwing a lot of temper tantrums this past week and has Chad and I exasperated trying to empathize and discipline in equal amounts. I know it's just an adjustment phase, but it's extremely hard on a Mommy who is stressed with responsibilities and who feels guilty having to return to work ANYWAY! When your children are unhappy, it just adds to the worry and the guilt. So...I have my occasional breakdown, shed a few tears and then face the fact that - I have to go to work and I spend as much time as I can with my children when I'm home...pushing swings and playing Candyland, in between folding laundry, cooking supper, paying bills, etc., etc. And most likely, with a lot of prayer and a lot of love, they'll grow up just fine, like so many children of working moms do...I have to keep telling myself that!

4 comments:

a cowgirl at heart said...

I am the product of a working mother and father and I'm fine. In fact, most kids of working parents are absolutely great because, like you, their parents decided that even though they were tired from a long day's work, it was worth spending time with their kids to ensure they knew they were loved and felt secure. And you're doing just that. I know I'm not experienced yet, but I know there is no need to feel guilty for working. Wouldn't you feel guilty if Aidan and Cord didn't have food on the table and could never leave P-town because you couldn't buy gas? Love ya!

Kyle Vannoy said...

I know what you mean about "gearing back up!" We love our summers at home and the time it allows us to spend with our children. I wouldn't give it up for anything. Sounds like you have your priorities straight and as long as you continue to make time for them, your children will benefit from your love and dedication. By the way, you're doing a great job at school. Keep up the good work!

TREY MORGAN said...

Wow, that Kyle Vannoy is wise. I like what he said. I'll keep your family in my prayers.

The Vannoy Family said...

We're all there... don't you give up! LOVE means a lot! You're a super mom, wife, teacher and friend! We're lucky to know you! And you are outreaching to so many kids here too! Think of it as your outreach too... maybe that'll help!